the speceimen was removed from artificial enviornment incubator and transferred to simulated ‘natural’ enviornement. ideal temperature of 67° reached. coordinates not disclosed so as to minimize uncontrolled external tampering with results. initial recordings documented.
one time, when I was an age younger than 10, we were leaving my dads house and when he hugged my grandma, he decided to lick the inside of her ear. none of us really talked about it, and I still don’t know why he did it, or if there was even a reason. so I made a painting about it, because it is still bothering me 14 years later.
I made this in 2 days while working on a very arduous 3 month commission, partially because I was still perturbed, and partially because I just needed to start and finish a piece. sometimes I start to lose steam if I am working on a project for a really extended period of time with no end in sight, and finishing a new piece helps to bring back a bit of confidence and momentum. I finished the commission a few days later (which I will share in December), and It was nice to see two very different sides of my art style right next to each other. ‘bisoux de papa’ is oil paint on canvas board, so it lays flush to the wall and is very non-intrusive to the space (the image makes up for that).
I’ll have prints in December, A4 or A5 size, and I might even run some limited edition prints of an edited version of the image.
this painting went through a lot of phases, and 3 full renderings before I got it to a place I loved. there’s 2 layers of acrylic paint under the final painting, because I was trying to convince myself that I liked acrylic as much as oil ( spoiler, I don’t. not even close). once I returned to my roots, I think we got something really beautiful. this painting is from early 2025 and honestly, I think the start of the painting arc that I am in at the moment.
‘prayers over alphabet soup’
originally, seeing the texture of all the previous layers really bothered me, but I think it adds dimension to the limited color palette. the neck shading was again, another thing that bothered me originally but now I really fuck w it, it makes the portrait feel like a freaky 3D rendering of a human. the locs were made with hot glue, then painted over in dark dark burnt umber, and they were definitely the best representation of my hair that I had painted till then. the added texture keeps the dark palette interesting, and honestly just looks so sick, with the little wispy pieces, clumps that act like tangles and the hanging loc that actually extends off the painting.
‘prayers over alphabet soup’
the prayer reads ‘may god forgive my soul of sin and bless my path ahead. please god let me build my righteous spirit and the strength to honor those I love’ , and I think it is very pertinent. the original is for sale, maybe I’ll make prints.
keep fighting the good fight and stay grateful for the blessings ahead.
yesterday was day 2 at the studio. after finishing the body’s skeleton yesterday, i wrapped one leg with cheesecloth-mache (cheesecloth + watered down wood glue), which i anticipated covering the entire body with today, but when i gt to the studio and saw it dried, it just didnt feel like what i was looking for. plus, it simply used way too much glue. i switched to a different wrapping technique, same materials, but instead of soaking the cheesecloth and wrapping, i painted the glue onto the skeleton, wrapped the cheesecloth, then painted more glue over the top to stick it down.
it actually worked really well, as you can see from the first two photos. way less overall material was used, and i felt like i could get into tighter spots without having so much overlap.
cheesecloth in natural dye. brick+ sulphur greendyed cheesecloth drying
for the next layer, im dying the fabric to more of a skin tone and hand stiching. i finished most of this process yesterday, and once i am done stitching i think we’re doing, another layer of glue colored to match the fabric… for cohesion and smoothness? this next bit will be ‘just trust it’, repeated over and over again, because right now this piece is giving ‘scary skin mask sewn together’ and i am trying to avoid that specific troupe, and anything body horror-esque.
she will come out sweet and delicate, i promise. thanx for staying up to date-
i like the back half of the year a lot. specifically the last quarter, after the august heat has subsided a bit, soup is back on the menu and my knit socks are a treat, instead of the last pairs left before laundry. the underpainting of my life is a bit cold and grey, so i finally start to feel at home again when the sky matches my tamber, even for a bit.
anyway, the first day of my residency was the day my car got totaled. life is funny like that.
for the next two months i’ll be one of the resident artist at March April studio in Ktown. woohoooooo. in 6 months i’ll cheer for real, once i’ve figured out whatever the world is trying to teach me at the moment. instead of keeping my work to myself and only posting finished products, for the length of this residency i will try to be a bit more forward facing and post updates of my work as it forms. yesterday was my first day working at the studio, and i am pretty happy with the skeleton i ended the day with. i am still toying with a few titles, but by open studio in december i promise she will be named. this piece is a companion to ‘am i your sunshine baby’, and will be installed with her for viewing when the time comes. i’ll keep you posted, thanx for reading.
every month, i get far too many emails. this month was no exception; but amongst the clutter was one worth reading – my first gallery invitation.
avocado dyed nuno felt double layer wrap skirt
i made a skirt in august.
i had just found ‘nuno felting’, and the prospect of making felt clothing that wouldn’t be suffocatingly warm. i love cheesecloth as a medium, particularly for paper- mache type projects, as it drapes and folds so organically. it is a very thin and breathable material, but has a lot of strength when layered due to its knit. naturally, i believe felt and cheesecloth to be very complementary materials, strength and warmth, but with freedom of movement and organic weight distribution.
the skirt wraps a custom dress form and was dyed with avocado pits and skins in my kitchen- and will be up on display at the Brooks Sunshine Theatre in Oceanside until December. check it out, the details are fun in person.
yesterday i got to show my neighbor my favorite lamp. how special. now i’ll show y’all too.
‘am i your sunshine baby?’ 2025
i started this lamp during the summer of 2023, and initially this sunshine head was going to be just that, a head on a 5-6 foot self portrait sculpture. i ended up drafting 2 separate life sized bodes, but they didn’t feel right, so the head stayed detached, and eventually was my seatmate on a 36 hour train ride from portland to los angeles.
‘am i your sunshine baby?’ is a self portrait about depression.
through most of my adolescence i struggled through extensive depressive episodes and often existed in a cloud of melancholy and existential gloom. in hindsight, i think i always had this notion that i was unable to be loved, and if i could just feel that ‘love’ i was searching for, everything would magically clear up and all my days would be sunny. the creation of ‘am i your sunshine baby?’ came after an itty bitty heartbreak in 2023, when i realized that externally, people already saw me as the sunshine and joy i was seeking, i just couldn’t feel it within myself. i was hoping for light and joy to be gifted to me by someone else, when i was already emanating them for the world around me. even after coming to this realization, it still took me over a year and a half to actually FEEL that light that i knew was there. in the interim, i would just stare back at this incredible sunshine head with the same dead eyed expression, sigh, and put it back in my closet. in march of 2025, i was going through some terrrrrrible really bad not good times, but emotionally i wasnt dark and despaired and gloomy as i would have been in previous years. maybe it was the therapy, or the mushrooms, or some secret third thing that had taught me to keep it pushing, but the sun was still shining. so i cut a hole in the bottom of this bad boy, added a light bulb, and (finally) gave him his rightful display. art and time are funny like that.
as for its actual construction, ‘am i your sunshine baby?’ is a cheesecloth-mâché hanging lamp, with silver wire for the rays, and standard air dry clay for the face. the face was oil painted, and the body was spray painted. the inner paper mâché layer was peeled from the cheesecloth before inserting the light bulb, to increase the transparency of the lamp and add some interesting dimension to the light emanation. this might be my favorite piece i have made in my artistic career, like a first born child. im sure something will challenge that idea soon, but for now please enjoy my favorite lamp, ‘am i your sunshine baby?’. thanx-
i busted my wallet 3 weeks ago, and since then ive just been carrying around a handful of cards and cash. very inconvenient, very slow at checkout. i started this project hoping to create something that looked more like a dried starfish with 4 points (fully unrelated to my wallet), but felting never goes as planned.
i made a book resist for this piece, with 2 triangles sewn down the middle. i ended up really disliking the colors of the felt together, partially because i forgot i wanted to do yellow inside on one of the pages and had to go back on the second layer, partially because the zipper was on teal denim (from a pair of jeans i chopped up).
i also disliked the shape of the piece when i first removed the resist. the corners were much larger and looser than i had intended, and the body did not hold its shape well, so i stitched until i liked it. i ended up dying the entire piece in avocado dye i made for a previous project, with a little ‘wine’ colored rit dye added.
great ideas all around the board. the folding, the asymmetry, the zipper placement and contrast stitch. the middle stages of a felt project always ick me out, so ive been trying to just keep adjusting until i love the project, instead of discarding pieces i feel are imperfect. with the new cohesive color and the stitching i ended up really loving this piece. it looks like an organ or a little cornish hen with no feathers or something equally as strange, and, coincidentally, it was the perfect size to become my new wallet/coin purse.
i think this piece is also the perfect companion to a bag i made last week, ‘chomp’.
i went to the beach last monday and found a beautiful collection of shell, and some gross isopodthing shells that i though i had the guts to take home and work with. eventually, (hours later) i threw them very far (and screamed a little), but my shells were worth it. ive been trying to figure out how to mix shells into all my projects this week, and this bag feels like rochelles sausage kebob.
yes, i did crush 2 shells and felt them into the second layer of the bag. the luster is not what i had imagined, you cant even see them fr and as i was felting i felt like my combinations were becoming desperate, but ! the ocean essence is definitely present in this bag, which i would like to credit to all the embedded shell flecks.
for this bag my first resist was almost football shaped, but with flatter sides. i felted three layers, then added blue felt to specific spots, added another small circular resist, and felted two more layers over the entire piece. fulled and rinsed the bag, cut the top to take out the large resists, and sliced open the areas above the other tiny resists. i like this concept of multiple resists for dimensionality.
all the beads are handsewn. blue embroidery stitching around the lip. stainless steel chain with blue glass beads.
i love this bag. the shape is interesting and ergonomic, the beads shine in the light, it sits perfectly under your arm, and when empty, lies pretty flat against the body. its a great bag. an elegant bag.
i came up with the idea for a rounder, ball shaped bag on a drive to ****** *******. then i got home and said ‘holy fuck, teeth’. i’ve been in a sci-fi mood lately. the proceeding bag, ‘chomp’ was made in about 8 hours total, with a brief 7 hour nap between 2 sessions to let the body dry. the body is wet felted sheeps wool over a simple plastic resist, the gums are recycled dyed felt from a previous project i skinned, teeth are needle felted sheeps wool sewn in with embroidery thread, and the strap is nunofelted (cheesecloth). this bag has a cinch closure, so all the teeth meet for an ugly little smile.